Eyam is looking at the chronicle of Chayle about her ztarting a new job. In different ztories of Chayle, it was mentioned that zhe had a part-time job and full-time job. Eyam prefers to have a part-time job, but the position zhe applied for is looking for a full-time job. Zhe wants the job because after three months the zchedule will be flexible. Zhe wants to have a flexible zchedule when working because zhe wants that during the time zhe’s talking to Capamer zhe’s not working zo zhe can focus on talking to him. Zhe wants to work from late afternoon till midnight. Zo at midnight onwards zhe can focus on conversing with Capamer. But for the first three months, zhe had to follow the zchedule. Now Eyam is thinking if having a full-time job is acceptable and would make Capamer and her family happy? Zhe’s thinking about Chayle’s experiences and the considerations zhe has when working.
Meaning – December 28, 2021
Meaning 1
During my first two years in high school, I had three close friends. In writing our story I would use letters instead of using their exact name. My high school closest friends are G, L, and A. All of them are smart. G was the most intelligent among us. Every year, she’s top 1 in our class. G’s mother wanted her to become a doctor, so she wanted to become one too. L was practical and confident. I think I first learned about confidence from her. She’s the first girl who truly showed me what confidence means. (maybe I’ll write a separate story for this) When we were in fifth grade I was impressed by her confidence. She’s also thrifty and at a very young age, she already understood the importance of budgeting because she considered her mother’s earning capacity. She wanted to be an accountant. The last one is A, she’s caring and thoughtful. She’s the type who would never fail to remind you about things. She’s the friend who would say “you should do this, you should do that” because she is concerned about you. A wanted to become a nurse.
Then there’s me, who’s not good in arts, not good in Math and not good in Physical Education. 🙆 Since I wasn’t good at Math, I initially thought I wanted to become a lawyer just because G wanted to be a doctor who used to be the closest to me at that time.
In college, we studied in different schools. G, L, and A chose the major that’s aligned with their target profession. While I was left undecided. 🤦♀️ Even though I was saying I wanted to become a lawyer, I wasn’t really convinced that I like to pursue it. So I thought of a major that does not have a lot of Math. I also considered what my research teacher advised me after reading my essay. She said I should take journalism. So, I chose to major in Communication. In college, I studied at three different universities, but the same major. While my three HS friends stayed in their respective universities.
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Meaning 2
After college, I tried different jobs that initially interest me. I easily get hired but I get bored maybe because even at that time I really didn’t see myself as an office girl. My first job was as a writer so I was always out to interview people, and visit some sites so I can write a story. So it was pretty exciting. But then the jobs I tried after that required me to stay in the office 9 hours a day and stay at the same table and chair. There’s nothing wrong with that kind of setup, it’s just that, I wanted something different. I wanted to create, I wanted to be inspired, I wanted to explore while doing my job.
At one point I felt sad because I was being compared with my friends. They were already starting to establish their career, while I was jumping from different jobs. Others think I was being reckless with my decisions and do not appreciate the jobs that I got. There was a time I was crying because I kept on asking myself what’s wrong with me and why I was undecided about what to really pursue. It’s hard to explain to people that I myself didn’t like jumping from one job to another. I quit because I didn’t see myself there and I wasn’t happy. I felt like a robot. I just did things because I had to do them. But I didn’t do them because I had intrinsic motivation. I wanted to do something that I’m passionate about.
When I felt so much pressure from people asking me “why” I spent some time thinking about what I really wanted to do. I was not in the mood to go out, I also did not apply for a job. I was just in my apartment at that time and watched movies all day long. From pondering about things, I came to realize that people have different motivations why they do what they do and why they pursue a certain job. Some want to earn more to provide for their family, some people want to practice their creativity. Some people want to serve. I realized, I need to find that motivation. I need to understand myself, what motivates me, what makes me happy and inspired.
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Meaning 3
Then it dawned on me that I wanted to have a job that fits who I am and something that I would want to do even when I get old. I also realized that the “why” of work matters to me. I am motivated by having a sense of meaning and purpose. I want to have a kind of work where I see it not just as a job, but deeper than that. I want a job that I will do everyday because it’s something I am passionate about, I find meaning in it and it’s aligned with my purpose. I wanted a job that would allow me to reach out to people, inspire them to be better, teach and comfort those who need to be comforted. So I decided to pursue teaching and counseling because those two seem to fit the things that motivates me. Fast forward, I eventually decided to go back to my first profession. So now I’m back to writing.
I don’t regret that I jumped into different jobs, because through them, I evolved and thrived. I was also able to have happy memories and stories because of them. But there are times when I wonder what if I pursued only one career. I’m impressed with my friends because they pursued only one kind of job. I think they have mastered it because they’ve been practicing it for years.
But today, one of my friends sent a message. It’s A. She told me that she admires me for having the courage to choose to do whatever I really wanted to do, and being able to do them.
I realized that we were both admiring each other’s situation. I admire them because they are consistent, and chose one path. But I did not know that they also admire that I was never stuck in one job, and that I chose to keep on thriving by pursuing my different dream jobs.
People choose different paths. One could opt for a more adventurous and risky way, while others choose a safe and stable route. But I think whatever you choose, as long as you have good reasons for pursuing it, there’s beauty in it. Also, what matters is that you are happy, at peace, and find meaning with your choices.
May we all find happiness and meaning in doing our jobs.
Happy Working 💪
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